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  I believe philosophy must not be studied. There is no real way to determine thoughts, as everyone is unique.  My personal philosophy contains these things: I wake in the morning, not wanting to get up at all. I really have no purpose. Although, I really want to wake up believing „today’s going to be a wonderful day.“ I want to remove my complaints. My impulses are strictly based on my feelings. I need to learn to get out of my head. My sense of satisfaction is being able to rinse off my day. The feelings I have that are self-evident is sadness. I always get asked if I’m okay or depressed. My beliefs are very loose. I never stick to things I want to believe in. My philosophy measures lower than anyone I know. I don’t love myself enough.

11 June  2025 Dear Luna, I am everyday. Awkwardness is something I’ve always struggled with. It shows up everywhere. Such as just walking down the hallway to class can feel uncomfortable, especially when I’m not around people I know. Even small things, like saying “excuse me,” feel harder than they should. It affects how I talk, how I feel, and how I take in what’s happening. But that feeling usually goes away when I’m with people I’m comfortable with. Although, those people were once completely  unknown to me. We connected through something we all enjoyed, and from there, it became easier to talk and share. So maybe the key to dealing with awkwardness is seeing that what I enjoy can connect me to others. If I’m willing to share the things that matter to me, the right people will show up, and when they do, everything feels better. Sincerely, the person you need to be and want, Heiko